Cold Turkey

I've never attempted to stop smoking up until April the 2nd, today. I must admit, it's not an easy feet especially if i've been smoking for more than thirteen years now. I Had withdrawal in the first few hours and just had to get my fix.

I'm guessing it probably sounds ridiculuous to people who can easily stop or have never been addicted to cigarettes. So Today was a struggle, and i gave in. Nothing wrong there... it's only a test to myself that this has been an excuse of mine to get out of responsibility. Say when i;m stressed or confronted by something i can easily say i'm going out for a cigarette break. Which i realize is my way of procrastnating and not taking responsibility for the things i need to handle in my life.. It has become an excuse, an escape and a way to stall.

Funny thing is i see myself being like that in a lot of areas in my life in a macro level. When Responsibility is presented to me in a way i didnt expect it to be, or even when i feel i don't know how to handle a situation i bail., i give up, i back off...

Gi Joe says" and knowing is half the battle"... Stepping into action and actually living my life to my responsibilities is an easy thing. ...know than i know what half the battle is... as compared to before i never tried, therefore never reallly knew what it takes... hope this post would make a contribution to smokers. You're not alone

Cebu weekend

What a fantastic weekend it was... Have you ever experienced going on vacation and expected a certain outcome to it? My cebu trip turned out just perfect and was not what I expected at all. Creme de la creme.. if the expression allows it. From awesome conversations with new friends, to being submerged in a cebuano home, to bar hopping and island hopping. Dolphins in the background and extraordinary service! Perfect, just perfect.

Purpose

I've got my purpose in life. My purpose is to make a difference in people's lives. What else is out there? what else do you want to accomplish for yourself? money? In the end of the day. It's just about other people. That's what living is. And that's all there is. That's all.

laptop

Hahaha got a new laptop. Cooool. Thanks Ibba!

dinner

sarap ng sinigang, sili at patis. ipinares sa hito at sukang maanghang!

the secret

i am creating a world of abundance.

i'm alive

i love waking up in the morning. when i first walk out my door i just say to myself, "it's a beautiful day".

Coldplay - Fix You

Coldplay Fix You Lyrics

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want but not what you need

When you feel so tired but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home,

And ignite your bones,

And I will try to fix you,

High up above or down below

When you're too in love to let it go

But if you never try you'll never know

Just what you're worth

Lights will guide you home

And ignite your bonesAnd

I will try to fix you

Tears stream down your face

When you lose something you cannot replace

Tears stream down on your face

And I

Tears stream down your face

I promise you I will learn from my mistakes

Tears stream down on your face

And ILights will guide you homeAnd ignite your bones

And I will try to fix you.

the school that i love

I am 27 years old and i am in first year college. I have been dropping out of school since second year high school and never really knew why. I always told myself school probably isn't for me nor education at least in the conventional sense does not work. i stopped my education back in 2002 and have bummed around. finding myself in weird places with all the bad habits and vices.. my life was in a downward spiral.. all along i was telling myself this is not the life that i want for myself yet didn't reallly know how to get out of that kind of lifestyle.. it was a constant struggle for me to wake up and questioning myself everyday if there is anything more to life.. i then asked my friend if he was willing to franchise his business to me, having in mind that in franchising a business would'nt really take much to manage or set up. so i set it up on Oct of 2005. Little did i know that having work and doing something really gave me something to look forward to in waking up everyday and i really got what the word "hanap-buhay" meant. its really living life and looking for it... and not waiting for "it" to happen. on a daily basis i met people from different backgrounds, i have the privelage of meeting someone new everyday and get a peak into their lives for five minutes.

I realized that it wasnt that school wasnt for me, i was just afraid of people. i was just terrified of people that i didn't know and didnt know how to be around them.

I chose to go back to school.

the one school is a non-traditional school wherein the school focus is on business pitches.. i have been here for a couple of months now and have never really said that i love going to school until today.

it is a business school where most of the educators are succesful entrepeneurs who have established themselves in their own particular fields.

A regular day would be talking about what it is that we or i as a person love in my life and how i can translate it into my own business....

to be continued....